Yoz ~

Just got home from work again...

Hahas ... =D

Oh yeah ~
I came across a report from a girl commenting about betrayal in a magazine ~
She mentioned that she betrayed her guy but yet

she said she did not feel guilty about it ...
My 1st thoughts were "She is such a cold and shameless slut ..."

(like me ... xD)

But as i read on ~
She mentioned that she has been neglected and her guy has never been able to
fill up the emptiness she was feeling ...
And she did that in order to fill up the emptiness inside of her ~
That sentence made me changed my opinions on her ...
I pitied her instead ... =/

It's like why bother getting a girlfriend/boyfriend when

you're just gonna leave her/him like this ???

I always used to think that if a guy/girl betrayed their partner,

they're suckers and aren't fit to live ...

But after reading that report ...

I kinda change how i feel that way ~

Not everyone can handle the harshness of loneliness ...
I must admit i'm one of em ~
I cannot handle loneliness very well ...
Whenever i felt neglected and lonely ...
I would hug my soft toy and cry myself to sleep ...
Pretty emo, eh ???
I don't like this weak side of me as well ~

For those who just get to know me or don't know me well ...
Don't be shock ...
Yes i can get very emo when i comes to this kinda situation ... =(
I simply detest this feeling !
It feels as though i'm the only living thing in this entire universe ...
No one's there for me, to care for me, to love me ~
If i had a choice, i rather not have any emotions at all !
No love, no happiness, no anger, no excitement, no sadness and
especially no loneliness ...

Life would be perfect for me then ~

I've always wanted a guy who's true to me ...
I simply can't stand it if he's thinking about another girl if i'm with him ...
Not only is he neglecting my feelings but also cheating on me !


I've got what i want and

my guy has always been true to me though ...
Not only that ~
He's kind,

funny,

gentle,

forgiving,

smart,

adorable,

a great cook,

sociable,

diligent,

patient,

generous,

caring,

lovable,

understanding,

irritating at times but in a cute way ...

To be precise ...
He's a great guy has the whole package and

i'm glad to have him as my boyfriend ...
But there's this single thing that he lack ...

Is that he is unable to fill up the emptiness inside of me ~

Haiz ~

I miss my dada so ...

I know you're busy with work and all ...

I know you're working hard for our future ...

I'm glad ~

That's why i have been trying to occupy myself with school, work and family ...

Never been this hardworking ever since i was in primary school ??? o_O

Or maybe i'm never this hardworking before ...

School during day and work during night ...

But i'm kinda used to this life already ~

Now i barely get to sleep about 3-5 hours almost everyday ???

Dada has been work very hard too ~

He can even stay awake for a few days just to complete his work !

Dada, its been hard on you ~ T_T

Baby ~

Let's work hard together, ya ??? ^^

I'll work hard too !

I wanna make you proud of me ~ =)

Whenever i'm unoccupied,

my world seems to be crumbling down once again ...

Lonliness would come back and start tormenting me all over again ~

DARN !!

My panda eyes are gonna get much worst !!! T_T

Gotta try to sleep early already !!!

Nights !!!

Bye my precioussssss !!! ^^