Patrina

DEAR CEPHAS

Monday, November 24, 2008 12:12 AM

It has been 5 months since we broke up ...

And yes, it's still HAUNTING me ~

I still can't accept the fact that you're with someone else so soon ...

And that you'll be going overseas to look for her next month ~

I thrown you and i got thrown back,
and the impact i receive seems to get greater instead of decreasing as days pass ...

When we were together ...

I'm like the boy who played pranks and yelled wolf !

The villagers believed him twice despite his pranks ...

But when the wolves really came ...

He yelled wolf ! It was already too late ~

The villagers no longer believed him ...

And the boy ended up losing all his sheeps ~

Likewise ~

I always claim that i'll change and all, i didn't ...

I kept on breaking my promises ...

Yet you kept believing in me ~

But when i've really changed ...

You no longer believe in me ...

You no longer have the strength to carry on this tiresome relationship ...

I'm sorry to have made you suffer the past 2 years ~

It's been hard on you ...

Ever since a child, i'll get most of the things i want ~
That might have made me into a spoilt brat whom take everything for granted ...
I've always thought that things will only go my way ~
It didn't matter whom i offend cause i have you, my family and friends to get me out of those shit ...

And no matter what mistakes i made, i never regretted them ~
The only thing the i've regretted in my 19 years of life was taking you for granted ...

You taught me LIFE ever since you left me ~

After you got together with her i asked why ...

You had many answers, you getting together with her was to forget me, i never change, she didn't have a bad temper like me ...

Why is it all related to me ???

I remembered when we were still together, you asked me once if there's a girl whom wants to snatch you away from me what will i do ?
I had 2 answers ...
1)If you love her i will grant the 2 of you and give you my blessings ...
2)But if you dont ... I'll either do nothing as i have faith in you or do all i can to have you back ~

Since you said that you don't love her ...

I intended to snatch you back and be together with you once more ~

Why bother forcing yourself to be with someone you don't even love ???

Hahas ...

How naive of me ...

Even if you weren't with her, i know you won't get back together with me ~

I've beaten you up and worn you out too badly that you can't even get up on your feet ...

It'll be really dumb of you to get back with such a spoilt brat like me ...

Since you've choosen her ...

I'll respect your decision ~

But ...

Since you 2 aren't married yet ...

I'll still continue waiting and loving you ~

If you don't want me to wait then faster propose to her ba ~ =]

You must be shaking your head while reading this,

disappointed in me and all ~
Maybe you might even feel victorious seeing me in this pathetic and disasterous state ...

Can't help it ~

The only way for me to forget about you or stop loving you is that God grant me a miracle and erase all my memories of you ...

Till then ...

I will still continue loving you ~

P.S I know i will never be the same as before ~